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Wednesday, March 11th, 2009
2:58 am
man its really been too long since ive come on lj..

& sooooo much has changed.
reading back thru my entries is amazing, seeing all the things i used to care about & feel..



im literally speechless over it. i mean seriously, go back to the very first entries in ur lj & see how much has changed-- its pretty cool in a way..

:) New life, new man ;), baby on the way..

That pretty much sums it up lol...

<33 ill be on more often

goodnight world <3

current mood: melancholy

(1 soulmate | True Love)

Wednesday, April 25th, 2007
10:22 pm
Jack Johnson is amazing =]

I love his music..!

I cant believe how fast this semester flew by.
And how much has changed.
In so little time.


current mood: crappy

(True Love)

Monday, April 9th, 2007
10:25 am
I hate it how your actions affect my emotions.

Get out of my head.
Get out of my heart.

(True Love)

Wednesday, March 21st, 2007
11:42 pm - My lasts
W H O . W A S . T H E . L A S T . P E R S O N .Y O U.

1. Rode in a car with?
Myself & my awesome music! lol

2. Went to the movies with?

3. You talked on the phone to?

4. Made you laugh?
My mom

5. Last person you told or they told you they loved you?

W O U L D . Y O U . R A T H E R.

1. Pierce your nose or tongue?

2. Be serious or be funny?

3. Drink whole or skim milk?
I'm lactose intolerant, so i pass on milk.. lol

4. Die in a fire or get shot?
Neither! But I guess get shot cause it's faster & less painful

5. Spend time with your parents or enemies?

A N S W E R . T R U T H F U L L Y.

1. Do you love someone?

2. Sun or Moon?
Hmmm.. both =]

3. Winter or Fall?

4. left or right?

5. 10 acquaintances or two best friends?

A B O U T . Y O U.

1. What time is it?
11:44 PM

2. Why do you have a myspace account?
Because, its awesome.

3. Where do you wanna live?
Where I live now!

4. How many kids do you want?

5. Do you want to get married?

7. Have you ever eaten spam?
ewww not after the first time i tasted it.. yecchh!

8. Favorite Ice Cream?
I dunno right now I'm on a diet lol

9. What are you listening to?
As the rush comes- Motorcycle

10. Do you cook?
I cook what I can

11. Current mood?
Kinda tired

IN . T H E . L A S T . 48 H O U R S . H A V E . Y O U

1. Kissed someone?
Yeah =]

2. Who was it?

3. Sang?

4. Been hugged?

5. Felt stupid?

6. Missed someone?

7. Missed a question?

8. Gotten your hair cut?

9. Cried?

10. Lied?

S T U F F .

1. Have you ever been searched by the cops?

2. Do you have a dog?

3. Last time you went sledding?

5. Do you consider yourself creative?

current mood: lonely

(True Love)

Thursday, February 22nd, 2007
9:19 pm

Fun survey...cause I'm bored!Collapse )

...Your lips provide a shelter for the things that I don't know...<3

current mood: bored

(True Love)

Wednesday, February 21st, 2007
8:01 pm - "Let's rearrange...
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage..."

Taking a road trip this weekend was exactly what I needed to get my mind off everything. I loved everything about this weekend- even the hectic parts :)

It made me realize that when you look out into the horizon you're looking at the rest of the world, and everyone tries to be so far apart but we're ALL so close. really- think about it. we're a freakin' species. Humans.

"It's all up in the air and we stand still to see what comes down
I don't know where it is, I don't know when, but I want you around
When it falls into place with you and I, we go from if to when
Your side and mine are both behind it's indication

This is going to bring me clarity
This'll take the heart right out of me"


current mood: rushed

(True Love)

Monday, February 12th, 2007
7:27 am - & the world keeps spinning...
comment with your name &:

1. I'll respond with something random about you
2. I'll challenge you to try something
3. I'll pick a color that I associate with you
4. I'll tell you something I like about you
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of
7. I'll ask you something I've always wanted to ask you
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on yours

current mood: sleepy

(2 soulmates | True Love)

Monday, February 5th, 2007
6:13 pm - So i leave bruised & broken...
Today is such a weird day. I'm in a weird mood, it's foggy out, it's rainy out.

Everyone i know is acting weird? or maybe i'm just weird.. i dont know??
I dont like when we fight because it really does affect my life. Thats one of the reasons I KNOW i'm in love with you. Of course, you'll never read this- you dont even know what a livejournal is, neither do you care. Say it if it's worth saving me, damnit.

"Heaven Is A Halfpipe"-OPM

If I die before I wake
at least in heaven I can skate
cause right now on earth I cant do jack
without the man up on my back

now heaven would be a dj
spinning dub all night long
and heaven would just kickin back
with jesus packing my bong
and if you dont believe in Jesus and muhammad and budha too
and while the world is warring
just sit back and laugh at you singing..

If I die before I wake
at least in heaven I can skate
cause right now on earth I cant do jack
without the man up on my back

now most people think of heaven
they see those pearly gates
but I looked a little closer
and theres a sign says "do not skate"
so if you wanna come to my heaven
well we're all gonna have a ball
and everyone u know is welcome
cause we got no gates or walls singing..

If I die before i wake
at least in heaven i can skate
cause right now on earth I cant do shit
without the man fucking with it

and then I got to the gate
pulled a list that I'd been calling fate
I'm sorry friend you cant come in
you gotta a list here that doesn't end
you're mad cause I smoke dope
you teaching any classes in how to cope
I'll find a place to rest my head
I rather be alone now that I'm dead
like chirstian hossoi way back in 87
we'll be busting Christ air's until we get to heaven
think I really care that I miss my biology
got my education in stale fishology
with all your rules you got to chill
I'm gonna twist out Mike McGill
I'm gonna twist out cause I got the skillz
I'm gonna twist out cause I got the skillz..got the skillz got the skillz

heaven is a halfpipe..
heaven is a halfpipe..

If I die before I wake
at least in heaven I can skate
cause right now on earth I cant do jack
without the man up on my back

If I die before I wake
at least in heaven I can skate
cause right now on earth I cant do shit
without the man fucking with it

current mood: lonely

(True Love)

Thursday, January 25th, 2007
9:45 pm - :-)
Today was a fun day. I skipped government class & mauri and I had a nice lunch and went to see "night at the museum". It was a last minute, totally random, out of the moment date. I loved it. I love him =x

current mood: peaceful

(True Love)

Wednesday, January 24th, 2007
1:24 pm - & it's been a while...

The semester has started off to be soo much fun. I've seen so many of my old friends and gotten closer with my new ones. It feels so good to be back at school. But for some reason I still feel like this empty void inside of me and it bothers me...but it doesn't bother me as much as not knowing why it's there.. or even worse- knowing why it's there but being to afraid to admit or realize it.

My life has been an emotional roller coaster ever since 9th grade and it feels like the ride needs to slow down and repair itself. Whyyy the fuucckk do I feel so confused? My past haunts me-- even though I try sooooooooooooo hard to not let it...- it still does.

All I want is just for things to be okay and to just be happy. be free. be real. And I want the same things for my friends.. it seems like there's so much shit happening right now. I am just so emotionally exhausted.

Everything in my life seems okay and actually is okay... but I feel like I'm trapped inside my body, watching my life on a movie screen, as it's actually happening. If that makes any sense.. whatever.

I have a headache :\


current mood: crappy

(1 soulmate | True Love)

Friday, December 29th, 2006
1:10 pm - My very merry xmas :-)
Christmas this year was so random. And so perfect. In reality, I started celebrating on Thursday night! I went out Thursday, Friday, & Saturday & just had so much fun.. saw sooo many of my friends who came home from college.. just a really nice time. I went to Candyland at Area 51 and had the time of my life. Haven't partied that hard in a while....

Then Xmas eve I wore my gorgeous new dress that I found at the last minute, and had a great time with my family.. around 12:45 AM i went to Mauricio's house and spent some time with his family.. Mike was there too so when his family went to sleep we went outside and chilled with some of the neighbors... we stayed up and drank champagne & wine & just talked till 5 AM!! But it was AWESOME... Then Xmas morning I woke up really early to go back to my mom's house to open presents.. I got ALOT of $$ :)from my mom & Jose, $120 in American Eagle gift certificates from my sister,brother & uncle...Victoria's secret lotion & body wash from my youngest brother(it smells soo good!), old navy cute pj's from Mauri's family, express gift card from Angelo, a bath & body works set & cute purse from Mike, this cool ass game called 20Q, blockbuster giftcard & cool golf ball from Tommy, more money from my dad, my 2nd favorite gift I got is my Nikon Coolpix S9 series digital camera!! and my favorite gift was of course from my love- a diamond promise ring... soo beautiful! 35 little diamonds. I fucking love it! After taking a nap Mauri & I went to the Dolphins game monday night and met up with Randy, Jose & Aaron which was cool but we left early cause it was freakin' pouring!.

This Xmas just made me realize that I love my friends & family so much. They're soooo amazing and I dont know what I would do without them. :) I'm happy.

current mood: happy

(True Love)

Thursday, October 19th, 2006
10:53 am - My life list
*No particular order. Except for #1. :)

1. See the Northern Lights
2. Live in NYC for at least a year
3. Own a big house
4. Have 2 kids
5. Go to Hong Kong
6. Go to Paris
7. Eat at the Eiffel Tower restaurant
8. Forgive the people who hurt me
9. Make enough money so that even my great great great granchildren are rich
10. Go to Amsterdam
11. Get married
12. Learn to ride a horse
13. Ice skate at Rockefeller Center
14. Land my dream job
15. Meet various celebrities
16. And party with them
17. Own a cabin in Gatlinburg
18. Go to Alaska
19. Live in Australia
20. Hold a Koala
21. Scuba Dive in the Great Barrier Reef
22. Learn to surf
23. Learn to bellydance
25. Be a secret agent

current mood: tired

(True Love)

Monday, September 11th, 2006
10:09 am - I remember :(

It's really sad to be watching the news right now as they're showing the live footage and memorial services from 5 years ago.

It's even more sad to see that those fucks released a 9/11 anniversary video, warning us of more attacks.

I'm crying as I'm watching, I have goosebumps everywhere, and it just hurts. I didnt have any family or knew anyone involved.. but I dont have to. I think that it was a horrific event that affected every american. It affected the world. I remember when it happened I was in 9th grade- earth science class, which was 2nd period, sitting between Ryan M. and Mauri, as our teacher Mrs. Krutchik turned the tv on and all of our jaws dropped. And 5 years later, it still makes me sad, it still makes me cry. I cant help but think what the people on the planes were thinking as they saw themselves nearing the World Trade Center or the Pentagon. I pray for them and their families.

When I visited NYC this summer it was AMAZING. I fell in love with Manhattan, the buildings, the people. The whole atmosphere of NYC is breathtaking. I could spend the whole day in Central Park, walking up and down 5th avenue. It's amazing. I did visit Ground Zero, and it just has such a sad solemn feeling when you walk up to it.

I guess I'm just writing to let out my feelings, I'm sure all of you share in the sadness of today. I'm gonna insert my pics from my NYC trip- the first one is us at Ground Zero. :(


NYC Trip PicturesCollapse )

current mood: sad

(True Love)

Wednesday, June 7th, 2006
3:33 pm
It's 3:35 PM

I'm bored & at work..


I wanna go home!

(True Love)

Tuesday, May 30th, 2006
11:01 am
Mom's birthday was on Memorial Day- we were at the keys since Friday. RV'ing with the family. The motorhome is HUGE, and fun, till you spend 4 days in it. I was soo happy yesterday when I finally got off and got into my own car. And saw my baby. I missed him. He missed me too. And now I'm at freaking work and i'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooooo*yawn* freakin tired. My whole upper body is sore for some reason, and I just want to go home and sleep and be lazy.
New York is coming up!
which means...
My Birthday is coming up! I love my birthday, just for the simple reason that it's my day. And it means I've survived 19 years of madness on this earth.
Sooo.. saturday was the greatest night on the RV though, we came back to Miami for the night and went to the Heat game - it was sooo fun and exciting, plus I was drunk. Then on sunday night my stepdad, my *awesome* stepbrother and I got trashed. Well I got trashed- Jorge (stepbrother) said he wasn't that drunk but I think he was. I was f'ed up.. tequila=love. But I missed my hunny and I wished he could've been there with me.
I can't wait till I get off work and see him :)
And sleep.

current mood: exhausted

(True Love)

Monday, May 8th, 2006
10:26 am - Four-sies
1. Hostess @ El Rinconcito (i quit after 1 day)
2. Honeybaked Ham cashier
3. Joe's Pizza
4. My job now- Admin. Assistant AKA "everyone's bitch"

1. Any disney movie
2. Wedding Crashers
3. Love, Actually
4. American Pie(any of them)

1. Panama City, Panama
2. North Miami Beach, FL
3. Pembroke Pines, FL
4. ----

1. Real World
2. Sex & The City
3. Laguna Beach (now it's gonna be The Hills!)
4. Deal or no deal..

1. Bahamas
2. Gatlinburg, TN
3. Orlando
4. Panama

1. MySpace
2. bank account
3. ad system for my job
4. e-mail

1. Amazing Thai
2. Shell's
3. Carrabas
4. Hops

1. Sushi!!
2. Shrimp w/..anything!
3. turkey & mashed potatoes w/ gravy...yummy
4. quesadillas made by my baby<3

1. Everglades High School
2. Flanagan High School
3. Pines Middle School
4. Greynolds Park Elementary

1. at home..sleeping
2. yea- sleeping at home. lol
3. Orlando with Tommy & Victor
4. Gainsville w/ Nathan

1. Showered
2. Worked(still @ work)
3. ate breakfast
4. listening to music

1. went to the marlin's game
2. went grocery shopping
3. watched TV
4. chilled with my baby

current mood: bored

(True Love)

Monday, February 6th, 2006
12:07 am - Does it make me a bad person?
Today was a blah day. Superbowl sunday's always been fun but today i was kinda off focus. i'm just so used to him. he's literally a part of me. i mean he's spending the night at his parent's house.. and picking me up in less than 7 hours to take me to work, because it was too late for me to drive him home and come back by myself. i wish deep down he would've stayed tonight. and it makes me terribly selfish for thinking that way, but i can't help it. i dont want to feel it, but it just builds up inside of me- i cried. like a baby- and now here i am updating people i barely talk to about the latest melodrama in my life. but it feels good to let it out. it doesnt make me not miss him. Every day for the past year we've lived together for he's been right next to me when i'm going to sleep- and tonight, he's not-

what is wrong with me?

current mood: confused

(True Love)

Saturday, October 1st, 2005
5:57 pm - Gotta Love Me

Image hosted by Photobucket.comNewest pic of me- tell me what you think! x0x0x

(True Love)

Saturday, September 17th, 2005
12:43 pm - I know now... you're my only hope...
For once life is good. I have nothing to bitch about. And it feels damn good.

He is my everything~ the things he does for me... my wonderful.

Something big is about to happen.... I can feel it.

current mood: loved

(True Love)

Monday, July 11th, 2005
12:08 pm
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paul van dyk (ft vega 4) - time of our lives

(1 soulmate | True Love)

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